My best friend..

My cousin just got on a plane, taking her hundreds of miles away from me and across the ocean. We had been living together for over a year, but then her mom got her life straightened out and now she's gone back home. I freakin hate it here. It's empty and so quiet. I have Kujo, but he's just a male dog, what does he know about girl stuff and being like a sister to me? No one can fill her spot and I feel like just curling up and sleeping forever. Every time I look at something it will remind me of her, it seems like we've had a funny experience with everything imaginable. And now, I can't even slap a fake smile onto my face to atleast cover up the fact that I want to cry like a baby. And you know the funny part? Before she left we dreaded the moment that she would have to get on the plane, but as I walked her through the airport none of us said a single word to each other, even if it was our last hours together, and I had so much to say. By the time she had to board the plane we were both on the verge of tears, but none of shed a single one. If we hadn't avoided eye contact when she left we would've been embarrassing ourselves by crying so much. Now that she's gone I don't know whether to be upset or happy. I want to be happy, but I'm just so damn mad that she just left. I haven't even called her yet, how can I have a normal conversation when I feel like yelling at her for abandoning me. She was the only person who understood. This past year literally gave both of us hell; but we made it through, laughing our asses off the whole time, because we had each other. Now, there's no one AND I'm depressed. I need more animals. -...- <br><br>Thank you for letting me vent.