>.< I've just been uber sad since Christmas of 2007. And then last year was even worse. I hate feeling so sad during Christmas, I wish I didn't have bad things to relate to Christmas. I was finally feeling not as upset during the Christmas of 2009, but then Meg died in 2010 and suddenly she would've been 13 in 2010 and now all I can think of before Christmas is death. I spent so much time before last Christmas angry and crying. Then I got Parker and it was a distraction. I still have Parker, but she hasn't been such a big distraction now that she's potty trained and I don't need to focus on letting her out every 10 minutes. I just I don't even know anymore. I've been thinking about Sunny and Meg alot today, I've been holding in tears for the first time in a few months. Its just ugh I don't know, I'm rambling. I'm signing off here I'm gonna go make a banner and play around with sad songs on iMovie.
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