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Oh My Goodness! Can I just say it???

edited July 2011 in Vent
Sorry guys but I HAD to get this off my chest before i bite Brian's head off fuming about it Dx<br><br>My cousin (Lets call her Scotti), just commented on a post I made about the new Tattoo{/url] (had to bleep out his last name) saying saying how was always.. You know what... I'll copy and paste.. This was about 10 minutes ago..<br><br><span style="color:#0000FF">"Scotti"</span>: really? pawpaw?<br><span style="color:#008000">Me</span>: Yea, Grandpa. He taught me everything I know about Horses and we spent a LOT of time together with them.. I love him sooo much and want something so everyone knows it :)<br><span style="color:#0000FF">"Scotti"</span>: yeahh im getting him tattooed on my back.. i have always been pawpaws girl cause i never had a father until i was a teenager.. u know what im talking about. u undersstand. and granny and pawpaw helped momma alot more than anyone really knows. i cry all the time for him.<br><span style="color:#008000">Me</span>: Yea. I love grandpa haha ive had this idea for years but never brought it up cause i wasnt 18. but no matter what grandpa has been there for me.<br><span style="color:#0000FF">"Scotti"</span>: yeahh... idk what exactly im getting but i know im getting his name and pawpaw.. idk what else. i havent thought about it in a while cause i havent had the money tp get it but now that i do im going to really start figuing out what i want<br><span style="color:#008000">Me</span>: I'm getting a horse and his name. That was "our" thing ya know?<br><span style="color:#0000FF">"Scotti"</span>: yeahhh i know<br><br>First off.. She has NEVER been pawpaws girl -_- The ONLY time she goes over there is when she WANTS something cause she KNOWS grandma will buy it for her..<br><br>Second off.. My aunt (her mom) Doesn't even know who her real father IS. It was a one night stand and doesn't even remember his NAME!!! She made the WHOLE family SWEAR to keep it a secret. The ONLY reason we haven't is because it's not our place to tell her. It's her mothers. "Scotti" Thinks her father died in a boat accident when she was 6 (He was her moms current boyfriend, NOT her dad)<br><br>Third.. Grandpa has told my dad, my grandma, and ME that I am his favorite granddaughter. We talked about horses for HOURS and rode ALL the time. He was ALWAYS teaching me something or talking to me. When I told him I really want a horse, he went into his pasture and hand chose one and GAVE her to me because he knew i wanted her! He had a stroke about 5 years ago which left him bed ridden. He is STILL paralyzed on his left side and can't walk. He cries cause he cant get on his horse and you know what?? He's okay with that! He says it makes him stronger and he knows this has happened to him for a reason and that when its his time, he will walk again. I went over there with my dad to take horse feed out there and feed the horses every weekend, then every other weekend. (less now that they get it delivered by the store) They live an HOUR from us and we STILL go over there to see them! "Scotti" lives 20 minutes from there and you know when SHE goes to see "Pawpaw"??? On SOME holidays! That's IT!<br><br>So she's pawpaw's little girl?? AS IF! I wanna grab her and mush her face into a freaking... piece of cake or something!!!! DX IM SO FRUSTRATED! I wanna scream and yell and tell her EVERYTHING I just told you guys, but I CANT! I have to hold my tongue or I will get in trouble! UGH!<br><br>52451644616846 Gazillion Cookies to whoever takes time to read/reply to this...*sigh* I feel a little better, but I'm still fuming inside... I swear you could see steam pouring from my ears right now..

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  • The kids in my family are always argueing about who's the favorite of PaPa and Gramma, but I'm the only one that helps them, and gives them everything I have and goes on these little trips with them at one in the morning because they're feeling ansy and want to get up and do something... (like they're still young or something) xD I'm the only one that massages gramma's feet when she's hurting and goes to the store to buy PaPa all kinds of candies when he has a sweet tooth but is lazy.. xD And I'M the only one spending every single second I can with them, while the others are running off doing idiotic stuff. Don't let her bother you, I have a very bad temper and can barely hold my tongue in an arguement, but I'm sure you can show more control. Just keep spending time with your Pa. Kids these days don't even realize how precious the time they spend with their elders are. I feel bad for those kids, my grandparent's are old, and when it's time for them to go, It'll be the worst day of my life, but I'll have the satisfaction of knowing I've spent all the time possible with them. I feel terrible for your grandfather, the thought of one of my grandparent's crying breaks my heart, I can't even stand to think of that, you just do all you can. He'll get back up on his horses, always have hope.
    Goodbye old VP, hello disaster. xD
  • I have a pretty bad temper as well lol that's why i had to come post on here so i didn't say something to her.. Yea we always pick at him and be like "you gotta hurry up and get walking so you can go chase the girls in town!" xD lol he always laughs at that haha he's not my real grandpa. hes my dads step dad but in all honesty... hes more my grandpa than my real one.. my real grandpa was NEVER there.. I've seen him MAYBE four times in my life.. he came down for Christmas or thanksgiving (i forget which) and we all spent the day at my grandpa's. Grandpa was in his wheelchair on the porch and my "real" grandpa was out in the yard taking pictures with the family, "Scotti" was right up under him taking all the pictures with him trying to be center of attention and took MAYBE two with here "pawpaw"... i took NO pictures with my "real" grandpa while he was down and sat on the porch with my grandpa and we talked.he told me dad (when i was forced to go outside and take pictures and he was inside) "they are all out there taking pictures with there true grandpa aren't they?" and started to tear up.. daddy looked at him and said "that girl out there (me) thinks more of you than of that guy outside. she would MUCH rather be in here watching a western with you then out there with him being forced to act happy" and grandpa started smiling.. one time i was standing by grandpas bed and he was holding my hand and talking to me (a few months after his first stroke) he was talking about never being able to ride horses and stuff (my dad had already gone outside with my grandma cause he couldnt handle listening to him) and i was looking at him with silent tears then stared off into space and he said "Dani (me) i love you with all my heart and your the grand kid i like spending all my time with.." i burst into tears and said "excuse me!" and literally ran out of the house and out into the barn and cried my eyes out for 20 minutes before my friend Janie came found me.. then i cried against her shoulder for another ten minutes.. when i ran by my dad and grandma i saw that my dad as crying too.. and grandma asked why i was crying and daddy told her"because mom.. that man in there in that bed means everything to her. blood family or not he means more to her than any other grandpa. it hurts her to see him like this" (he told me that after we headed home) when grandpa had his second stroke i almost gave upon my horses cause the drs said he may not live. i had to fight tears the whole way to the hospital.i argued with the drs till thy let me in his room and i went in there and held his hand and told him i could love him even though he was asleep at the time and couldnt hear me... we stayed there for 12 HOURS till we got all the results back and they said he would be fine...<br><br>sorry again for writing so much... just good to get that all off my chest... =/
  • I know the feeling... I have a cousin who is the EXACT same way... My Pot (grandad) was like a father to me becausde my dad isn't the best man in the world. I grew up with him in my life. I was riding horses with him before I could sit up straight LITERALLY!! And the day he passed away she had the nerves to say the SHE was his favorite!! I think NOT!! I lived two states away from him, but I still saw him more than she did... She lives the next city over!! She didn't go and visit him when he was going through cancer treatments, but I sure as heck did!! And sow did her mom and sister!! She claimed to have "better" things to do!! And she wants to say she is his favorite!! Ohhhhhhhh please!! She is just the snobby little brat of the family, who ALWAYS gets what she wants... And to be honest she got on his nerves!! He liked me and her sister WAAAAAAAAAAAY more than her!!
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  • Omg! EXACTLY!!! The sounds JUST like my cousin!! When he had his stroke she always had "better" things to do and didn't even go to the hospital and she lives close than I do!!! Ugh! It's SO frustrating!
  • Aww well Garney if you ever need someone to talk to you're more than welcome to pm me :)
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  • My grandfather is not my "real" grandfather either, he's my Mom's step-dad. But he's been there for my entire life. He's the one who loves me. My "real" grandfather lives about 2 hours away and couldn't care less. He has a whole new family out there and couldn't be bothered with his first family. <br><br>Oh well, all I am trying to say is that just because they aren't your biological grandparent doesn't mean they love you less.
  • yea thats what i mean kit, hes not my "real"grandfather but hes been there more times than me "real" one. My "real" grandfather lives like three states away and my grandpa down here (my dads step dad) spent SO much time with me that i never even knew he wasnt my dads dad till i was about 10. i always assumed he was and they assumed i knew. When i found out that changed NOTHING. I still see him as a biological grandpa cause he was always the only one in my life ya know? lol
  • Im sorry :/ I have relatives like that. :x I <33333 people like you described your pawpaw! There is this 74 year old man that has a whole bunch of horses and knows a TON about them and he teaches me things about them and its almost like HES my real grandpa instead of my actual grandpas because he is always there whenever I need to talk. He lives a state away but I can get ahold of him by phone or email if I need to. He does more then a 50 year old man does. He goes without any sleep for a LONG time and he acts as if he is not tired at all. He is amazing! I have never been close to either of my grandpas because one is like my 8th "grandpa" on one side cause my grandma got divorced 8 or MORE times and Im not close to him at all and she wont even talk to my real grandpa, my mom JUST met him a year ago because she has huntingtons diesease and it caused us all to get together. Long story short I NEVER talk to him lol. And my other grandpa lives 23 hours from me. :P Sorry for rambling lol.
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  • My Pot wasn't my "real" grandfather either. He was my dad's step-dad, but he was my cousins' real grandfather and she ALWAYS had "better" things to do! She didn't even go to the funeral!!
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  • Wow, that is horrible! If someone like that died I would do my best to make it to the funeral even if it is 23 hours away or something like that!
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  • I rode with my mom's family (who wasn't even close to him at all) 8 hours to the funeral and she couldn't travel the 30 minutes or less! Everyone was very upset over it, but her dad just blew it off and even left due to everyone chattering among ourselves about it.
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  • Oh my goodness! Just going to the doctors office after my grandfathers second stroke made me wanna break down and cry... my boyfriend held me the whole way there and told me everything would be okay.. and it was.. I hate when kids do this.. its like they don't even realize what they have in their lives... and i JUST noticed that in my angry state when i typed the first post i messed up the link... so here it is.. <a href="http://i53.tinypic.com/9usm1l.jpg"; target="_blank" class="bb-url">Tattoo</a>
  • That's a pretty tattoo.<br>I am going to get one like it, but it's going to have his picture from when he barrel raced, his name over it, and the date he passed away under it. I have to wait until I have the money though, but my cousins' dad does them and has already given the daughter that went to the funeral a tattoo. It's a wolf lolz. It's pretty though (:
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  • The tattoo is absolutely gorgeous Garney. I love it, it has an emotional feel to it, and radiates loves. : ) I have my babie's name and little handprints on my back along with her date of birth. As soon as she can write her name I'm going to have her write it on my wrist then get it tattooed there. No matter how kid-ish the hand writing is, it will be beautiful and perfect because my little Emma is the one that wrote it. : ) This is why I love tattoos, they can tell life stories and bring the deepest emotions out.
    Goodbye old VP, hello disaster. xD
  • That is SOOO Beautiful!!!!!!!! I cant wait to see what your would look like cherokeez :P
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  • Thanks!<br>I have to get someone to draw the picture for them to see exactly what I want but I will post the pic when that happens :)
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  • So I almost got this tattoo day before yesterday but my friend that was gonna do it for free let to go to North Dakota for work and ill be moved to Arkansas before he comes back! D: So I'll either have my boyfriend do it once we move up there or save up money have a professional do this one (the others were done by my friend and not professionally done BUUUT he is amazing and is gonna work for his buddy that IS a professional. His friend wants him to apprentice with him SO bad haha but Brian (my boyfriend) wants me to get it professionally done since it holds so much meaning 0.0
  • I understand his point though. My fiance wants me to get mine professionally done as well because my cousin's dad messed up on his daughter's tattoo, so I'm not sure what to do lolz
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  • if he messed up before i would NOT go to him for something s special ya know? Id want someone that i KNEW would do it right =) i mean its permanent, you cant just erase it and start over =) In the end it's all up to you though!
  • That's true... I'm probably going to go to a professional.
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  • on the subject of grandparents, i have never met my real grandfather (moms dad) and never got to know him, but until i was 11 (when the real grandfather) passed away I didnt know that my grandpa was my moms step dad, so it really doesnt matter who they are, as long as you love them and see them as your grandparent then you'll always love them for that.<br><br>Also on my dads side, theres this woman who knows my granddad lets call her Ellen, so Ive known Ellen since I was little and have always known her as that, but when I was around 10-11 i asked her if i could call her my grandma, since my dads mom passed away before I was born. So it really does show that you can love someone as your grandparent even if they arent. Even to this day I call Ellen my grandma
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