Two Things

1) I already had trust issues.<br>I go to a lutheran school, and every Wednesday we have a bible study, lead by two students, there are like 15 groups around the school. Anyways my group is Myself, my friend Shelley (all names are not real), my friend Rachel, and a boy in my grade Bob. I trust Bob, Shelley, and Rachel, but I'm not so trusting with anyone else. So we have this rule in our group that what happens stays in the classroom. So on Wednesday at the end of the study, we got into pairs of 2 and say whats truly on our heart, then pray about it. I was with Bob, and Shelley and Rachel were together. So because I trust Bob, I told him what I was on my mind, and what I said was, "Well lately, I've been mad at Cassie (a friend), because she encourages Bill (a jerk in my grade), to make fun of John (a friend of mine from cow showing). And I'm unsure of how I should approach her about this." So Bob and I talk, we're the last two to finish up, and because Bob is a leader everyone had to wait for us to finish, and we didn't notice one of Cassie's other friends Amber was listening in. So Amber goes to Cassie, and tells her everything I said. Okay so this breaks the what happens stays in the room rule. I barely trust people as is. I had a hard time trusting Bob, it took me a lot of guts to tell him what was bothering me. And for someone to just listen in and spread it because other people then found out... Ugh... Well I'm a food bringer for the group, because we can have snack, and my lovely answer is no food... cause Amber always wants food... Yeah... Trust issues thanks!<br><br>2) I'm not mad at you.<br>Today, we had to take one of my favorite cows to market, I've known for about 3 months, we'd have to. Well anyways my dad not wanting to ruin my day, didn't tell me until he picked up from school. And when I tried to talk to him at all, he shut down. I'm upset, but I hate being upset in front of my parents, and he like hesitates around me as if I'm mad at him. I'm not mad. I'm upset because I've had this cow since 05, but I'm not mad at him! Now he's trying to buy my forgiveness, but theres no forgiveness to buy. Anyways. I'm gonna miss my Baby Darling <333