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I don't even...
I don't know where to begin, everything has been great until this morning...my parents where happy about me and my boyfriend being engaged. I wanted to go up there this week to look for a job and apartment prices, but I was going to have to stay with Jeffrey this week to do so...well, if anyone knows me, you would know I grew up in a very strict Christian home - I decided I would bring it up to my mom causally because me and her where messaging each other so I brought it up in the next message. Well, she decided to call me and freak out she said that if I move up there with him that she will not take part in my wedding, she will never acknowledge me again and right now my dad is so mad at me he won't even talk to me. 
<br>And they wonder why I never tell them anything. <br>Why even tell my dad when you know what he's going to say? She could have called me first and told me what she wanted me to do (I will get to that later), but no! Now my dad is mad at me because she just HAD to tell him before I even made the 100% decision. <br>I can't even be excited or happy that my life is coming together because my parents like to twist and turn everything I do, honestly I feel sick to my stomach everyday because I don't know what my family will do/say next. <br>She even said that if Jeffrey loved me he wouldn't force me to move up there...uh, he's not? Not only that, she said "What if after college is done and over with he forgets all about you and doesn't want anything to do with you"....why would you say that to the girl who is about to marry him?! <br>I understand where they are coming from (for certain reason that can't be discussed here), but they want me to be an adult yet they don't want me to be an adult.<br>So here is what my mom said for me to do: get a marriage licenses. Now, I am thinking I just want to do that and not even have to deal with a wedding because EVERYONE LIKES TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLICATED. I feel like I am the only one that gets the most weight onto them in my family. Jeffrey grew up complete opposite of me, he had a really rough life, so our families clash.<br>Every town I go to that has even just one of my family members I just want to escape that town because I get so much BULL from them.<br>Not only that, everyone thinks I am going to pop out babies tomorrow, me and Jeffrey's family both. I DON'T WANT BABIES UNTIL I AM READY!!! I've said that who knows how many times, now I don't know if I want kids because once again, I'm not "allowed" to have any. My mom wants me on birth control, Jeffrey's mom wants me on birth control. <br><br>But, what do I want?
<br>And they wonder why I never tell them anything. <br>Why even tell my dad when you know what he's going to say? She could have called me first and told me what she wanted me to do (I will get to that later), but no! Now my dad is mad at me because she just HAD to tell him before I even made the 100% decision. <br>I can't even be excited or happy that my life is coming together because my parents like to twist and turn everything I do, honestly I feel sick to my stomach everyday because I don't know what my family will do/say next. <br>She even said that if Jeffrey loved me he wouldn't force me to move up there...uh, he's not? Not only that, she said "What if after college is done and over with he forgets all about you and doesn't want anything to do with you"....why would you say that to the girl who is about to marry him?! <br>I understand where they are coming from (for certain reason that can't be discussed here), but they want me to be an adult yet they don't want me to be an adult.<br>So here is what my mom said for me to do: get a marriage licenses. Now, I am thinking I just want to do that and not even have to deal with a wedding because EVERYONE LIKES TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLICATED. I feel like I am the only one that gets the most weight onto them in my family. Jeffrey grew up complete opposite of me, he had a really rough life, so our families clash.<br>Every town I go to that has even just one of my family members I just want to escape that town because I get so much BULL from them.<br>Not only that, everyone thinks I am going to pop out babies tomorrow, me and Jeffrey's family both. I DON'T WANT BABIES UNTIL I AM READY!!! I've said that who knows how many times, now I don't know if I want kids because once again, I'm not "allowed" to have any. My mom wants me on birth control, Jeffrey's mom wants me on birth control. <br><br>But, what do I want?
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