Why am I even nice about it??

Okay, Well as most of you guys probably know, I have two older brothers. Chris and Steven. Some of you probably even know about my niece and nephew (Chris' kids). A lot of things have been annoying me so bad lately! I'm so ready to just snap..<br><br>One - My brother Chris is going through a divorce. I get that. I love him so much because he is my brother. But we were never that close. He was always out with his friends at parties and wouldn't get home till 2-3 in the morning. I grew up barely knowing him. After he got off he drugs and alcohol and went through 6 months of rehab, I realized that siblings bonds go deeper than just your mind, I missed him SO much. When we went to visit him I spent as much time as possible with him. I was SO happy when he got out and was able to come home. About a month after he got out, he moved in with his new girlfriend. Later, they got married. They have been married 5 years and are now getting a divorce. So he is back living with us. He has gone back to drinking and comes home drunk sometimes. I even get dragged outta the house to go be a designated driver for him and his friends. He even gets Joey to drink WITH them! Joey promised me that he would slow down on his drinking to better our relationship. Guess what? Drinking with my brother, DOESN'T help!<br><br>Two- Francesca, Chris' wife/ex-wife, drops the two kids off here as soon as Chris gets in from working and just LEAVES them here so that she can go out and party and be stupid with her friends. I never liked her from the start. She was one of those stuck up rich girls that think they are better than others. Me and her were on opposite ends of he spectrum from each other. But I was nice for my brothers sake. Now, she calls him ALL the time asking what he is doing, what are your plans for tomorrow, what did you do last night. Then FUSSES at him when he asks HER what SHE has planned! I mean for Christ's sake! YOU CHEATED ON MY BROTHER!!! She can't deny it because her son, Dylan also my nephew, TOLD me that she had this guy named Dustin over ALL THE TIME! Said he stayed the night with mommy sometimes. UGH! What my brother does now that YOU are out of his life, is HIS business!<br><br>Three - Kyra & Dylan (niece and nephew) - I know this rant is a little petty but still.. It's sooo aggravating! I am nice enough to let them play my Gameboy Advanced and Nintendo DS, even though you have to go to a specialized game store to get games for a Gameboy now and they HARDLY make/sale Nintendo DS stuff these days. No Walmart around here sells these things now. Dylan is 9 and Kyra is 5 btw. So Joey and I are laying in my room watching a movie and Dylan just walks in and starts going through my stuff. I say, "Dylan what are you doing?" he says hes looking for my games and Gameboy advanced console. I say, "They are in that box on the bottom shelf. Don't just walk into my room and go through my things without asking okay?" "okay" and he runs to the living room. A few hours later. He does the EXACT same thing! I tell him AGAIN to ask before coming into my room and going through my stuff. Then Kyra comes in looking for my Nintendo DS. I tell her the same thing I tell Dylan. So she comes over to my bed and asks if she can play. I say yes and get up to get her the game. Well a few hours later my mom yells for me. So I go in the living room and Kyra has broken the key pad off the DS. Easily fixed. I snapped it back on and took the DS away saying, "Ky, baby, you broke it okay? No more playing with it." and put it in my room. I go to Joey's for a while to see his brother about a book I asked him to look at for me. I get home and my mom is like "Dani come sit down." So I go over and sit in Joey's lap since that is the only available place for me to get at the time. She says "Dani, don't yell and dont get mad." Then hands me my DS. The top screen is COMPLETELY ruined! It was broke off its hinges and is now hanging loose! I ask who did it and she said that while I was at Joey's house, Kyra got it out and was playing with it. I got SO mad. I got up and went to my room and laid on my bed with the light off. Joey came in there and laid down beside me and talked to me to calm me down. After I was okay with being mad, I just leaned my head against his chest and bawled my eyes out for a good 20 minutes.<br><br>Four - Felicia. She keeps saying that I won't spend time with her anymore because I'm with Joey. EVERY time i try and invite her over, she is always with her cousin Ashley! Then when she was home. I was on vacation for two weeks and COULDN'T invite her over. I invited her over and she stayed the last two days with me. Both of which Joey was here. But neither day did I know that he was coming over. It was my mom that said he could, and both days he showed up while Felicia and I were both asleep. So she got mad at ME about it! I didn't even know he was coming over!<br><br>Five - People. I know I shouldn't worry what others think.. But the things they say can be very hurtful. I have very low self esteem and they just make me feel ever worse!<br><br>Six - Brooke. Joey's ex. She is ALWAYS talking to me about how different Joey is now, and how she misses him and wishes she hadn't of broken up with him. HELLO! HE broke up with YOU! Not the other way around. I was THERE when you two broke up! Another thing.. He is ENGAGED now! So leave him alone! You will NOT get him back. He can't stand you!!!<br><br>Lots of milk and cookies to anyone who reads this.. I just had to get that off my chest.. I'm bout ready to just.. run away or something.. I've been having depressing thoughts about life lately. It almost doesn't seem worth it anymore =( You can PM me if you want to.. I just need someone that I can talk to about things.. and sorry this is such a long post..