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Its never easy
I had been dreading today, though I didn't believe it would be this hard. Living with someone for fifteen years and then losing them is incredibly hard, however.<br><br>I was ready for it, I thought. We had the appointment set up, and I knew it was for the best. Shelby, my English Setter of fifteen and a half years, passed away today.<br><br>It's so quiet in the house, it just doesn't feel right. It feels empty, I feel lonely in a weird way. I'm used to her panting and pacing, I'm used to her noise. Now there is nothing but silence. I know it was for the better, but it doesn't make losing her any better.<br><br>The vet said the panting and pacing was definitely pain. I hated watching her suffer, but all the more, I hate losing my best friend. I know it's going to be painful for me for a long time until I can finally get used to it. Hopefully that will be soon. I want to hold onto her and love her forever, but I also need to do so without feeling so much sorrow.<br><br>For today I'm not going to type up too much. It's making me cry all over again, and I do believe I have never cried so hard before in my life as I did earlier. No matter her age, no matter how she has been acting for the past couple weeks (totally unlike herself) she was, and still is, forever my best friend, my sister. I will forever be her girl.<br><br>I love you Shelby, and I'm happy you are free of pain. I hope you and Tiffany have rejoiced and you are both running and playing like you used to all those years ago. I can picture it, and it's beautiful.<br><br>Rest in peace.<br><br><br>(yes, I posted this to dA as well, I honestly can't write about her too much right now, but I want to put something out for her.) I miss her so much already.
All good things must come to an end. All endings will begin new good things.
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