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KiteKatsumi9 · March 2008

Well...tomorrow I turn 17. I have mixed feelings about it... I'm growing up too fast. It feels like I just turned 16. And 15, too. Things that I remember like yesterday, I'm realizing, happened years ago in reality. That scares me. Its like "Wow...that was 2 years ago?" My grandmother just died last Thursday night. I thought she was only 72. She was 80 at least. It was a slap in the face for me. That could be me...sooner than I think. I end up thinking about death...a lot. It scares me. Do you feel pain? Are you really reborn, and do you completely forget your past life? Do you really go to some magical place; reunited with all of your passed pets, friends, and family? Do you just see black forever? Was I once someone completely different, with a life completely different, and different friends and pets? The thoughts all scare me, but they won't stop coming. The good thing about it being my birthday tomorrow, I guess, is presents. I can't think of any other reason why someone would be excited about being 1 year closer to dying. At any rate, I might see my close cousin tomorrow (who I haven't seen for months. I only get 1 chance to see her every other weekend, but her dad 'didn't feel like taking her') and that would be a very, very wonderful present. My boyfriend might come over after school; that would be awesome too. I'm getting 3 Fall Out Boy shirts, and 2 Fall Out Boy hoodies (if they come in the mail tomorrow) and that's awesome. I'll probably get a little thing from my sister. I might buy myself another Betta tomorrow. But...I can't help but think that presents are a way of my family trying to distract me from thinking about death on my birthday. They know that's all that I think about on my birthday. I don't know. Well...at any rate, tomorrow's my birthday. I might not be in the best of moods...this is my heads up to all'a you guys. If I seem moody or accidentally snap at any of you, its not your fault. You didn't do anything.

Faeriegirl83 · March 2008

I've had the same thoughts. Especially this one: I was thinking about stuff like the Buddhism reincarnation. If I once was a different person and was reborn with no memory of my past, then what will happen when I die? Will I forget all about my accomplishments, my friends and idols, my memories? I don't want that to happen. It is so strange how when you are young, you look forward to growing up and wish for aging to speed up. Then when it happens you do all you can to slow it down.

KiteKatsumi9 · March 2008

Tina Wolf wrote:

If I once was a different person and was reborn with no memory of my past, then what will happen when I die? Will I forget all about my accomplishments, my friends and idols, my memories? I don't want that to happen.

That exact thought keeps popping up in my head.

Faeriegirl83 · March 2008

And now, I'm gonna try to push it out of our heads. *grabs bulldozer and shoves thoughts away*

Grapple · March 2008

Yes, life comes and goes pretty quickly, some quicker for most people. My grandpa died when he was 62

Doggirl1995 · March 2008

I have those thoughts all the time. But nothing can stop us from dying, it's a scary thought, but you can't run from death. It will come sooner or later. I often feel sad on my birthday because of this, knowing I am one year closer. Everything seems to go by so fast. Just try and make the best of life and accomplish as much as you can. ;3

Mikey Makita · March 2008

Happy Birthday Kite.May your life be filled with happyness and VP

Faeriegirl83 · March 2008

And happy dancing! *happy dances with Kite*

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